Stuck

My room is a mess. Clothes litter my floor. Dishes inhabit my desk. Dark circles hang on my eyes. The tan I gained from the beach has faded to my original skin tone. I should get up and do something worth my time. I should get up and be social, but when I did, I just got turned down again and again. Each time I tried to invite some one over, they forgot or said no, causing my shoulders to grow heavier. When I try, I get turned down. When I don’t, no one cares. My sister lives with her head up high and a light around her. How does she do it? I can’t go more than a month without feeling so heavy I can’t get out of bed. She has friends who care. She’s not afraid to live. Mom says I should go back on my meds, but that thought sends a shudder down my spine. Mom says I should make new friends, but I’m scared. I’m scared of what they will think. I can’t tell my mom that. I really tried to be happy and I was for a month or two, but my mind caught up with me. I’m stuck.

e.r.b

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One thought on “Stuck

  1. Hey stay strong you’re doing great. View another day with an open mind, make the most of it and have fun. To the friends who didn’t come to see you, they suck. Maybe you can try asking some of your close friends again, if they want to hang out or do something. Don’t be scared to meet new people, you’re an amazing person and you’re worth meeting! You may find some people who have more in common with you than you think. Perhaps you could speak to your sister for some advice.

    Don’t hesitate to email me if you want someone to speak to:
    Roxy.smith2605@gmail.com

    Hope you have a great day,

    Roxy x

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